How It Feels to Win the ACFW Genesis Award
Here I am at the Awards Gala of the American Christian Fiction Writers (ACFW) Conference where I was awarded the Genesis Award for Romance. (For those of you who aren’t familiar, the Genesis is a contest for unpublished writers that wannabe.)
That’s my precious agent, Jessica Kirkland. You can’t tell from the picture, but she was figuratively propping me up so I wouldn’t fall over from the shock of what COULD happen.
Was I shocked when I won? Yes. Absolutely numb.
But now that I’m back home in the safety of my computer chair and the comfort of my worn-out pajamas and socks, I’m feeling an entirely new array of emotions.
Because winning the Genesis COULD change my life. (Maybe, maybe not.)
But a publisher somewhere COULD lift an eyebrow and ask, “V.V. who? What did she write?” And then said publisher COULD like my manuscript and offer me a contract, after which I COULD work with a fancy editor, and I COULD see Jaded in a bookstore, and people COULD start reading my words, and some of those people COULD like them.
And others could not.
Every single one of those COULDs evokes exactly the same emotion deep in my gut:
Fear of the unknown–like I’m diving into the deep end, only to realize too late that nobody filled the pool.
You ever feel that way?
Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.
Diving Photo courtesy of DVIDSHUB